Just finish off with my statistic test and did my discrete maths test the day before. Can't say I did well , have to work harder or am so gonna flunk my exam. :(
Anyway this post is just for me to test my blogger app out :) simple but not as enhance as the website.
1 more day and I'm going home yay! Till then, bye~
"And it always feels like there is just one person in this world to love, and then you find somebody else, and it just seems crazy that you were ever worried in the first place."
U cant sleep and u're browsing thru the web randomly. and when you try to find things from your bookmarked sites and suddenly, u saw a site that you bookmarked years ago .
A map site that you bookmarked. You deleted it since you find it useless to you anymore and when the moment u clicked "delete".
The memories flows in.
and came the feelings which were once long buried deep.
Before you let yourself take on the train down the memory lane.
You said:
"Hey, I'm having the time of my life now, I haven't feel more of myself than any of the other day."
by twitter, by facebook, by instagram, by blackberry, by android, by angry birds, by iphone,
By the pace of technology.
=)
I will still blog. but not that often anymore I guess.
and I want to clarify something. Many may be wondering, and I guess I owe u guys an explanation.
oh! but then, after some thinking of the circumstances, I decided not to post it out. HAHA!
but.. I promised that I will clarified it to you guys in person if you guys tend to ask.
Under the circumstances that you guys asked the CORRECT question. =D
used to care what people talk about me behind my back, words goes around u know, and it eventually will be known by the person ure talking about. I heard about what u guys said about me today behind my back. Surprisingly, I did not get all fed up or bother by it. least not as much as it used to be.
I guess,maybe cause the feeling is mutual. =) and I'm lazy to care too. Enjoy your life Segians.
Headphones. I know it will damage yr ears if you use it too often, But there is this reason why I need it, the feeling when u look at a person blabbing none stop yet you just look at them with a fake smile on yr face like you actually listening to them, but you turned the volume to the max.
It really makes you feel like you own the world. =)
Other than staying in a complete darkness this is another way I escape from the reality once in awhile. I'm not good at shutting down my mind,like I got this OCD to make me keep on thinking and talking randomly to myself in my head,things that are irrelevant or even not worth to be pick up.
The distraction of the surrounding sounds, the main fact that reminds me I'm still in the reality, so I would just put on my headphones, shuffle the track lists in my itunes and just listen to nothing , but the echoes of music in my mind.
And there's this thing about me being abnormal, I'm not sure if this is part of the growing thingy that everyone will go through, but the rookie in this pace I am still wondering and hitting the bushes as I'm walking down that alley that I don't even sure where it leads and am I on the right track.
I know I think differently , some may notice slightly more than what I used to be, but sometimes I'm confuse myself, as in why am I writing this down at 0630 in the morning instead of snoozing away.
There's also this moral ethics thing, thanks to it I am bounded to the ground , chained by it's ethical crap. I wished to like:"hey dad I feel like to go around the world so I won't be back so soon bye." But then that would be irresponsible or so called rebellion or worse I would be the ungrateful child right? Yea see like i said thanks to the ethical crap.
Why cant we fly when we were born as an angel? Even the devil have bat wings, Or are we chickens without the guts to do so?
Every action, every steps that we take we have to consider the consequences for we are the heart of our life and the decisions we make will create ripples that effects the people around us. We choose the most carefree way ,that which won't give out the most affection, that will satisfied each side , but we always awfully forgotten to consider ourselves in the equation,thus with the solution that you're not embracing it, but graded to do so.
I need the disco ball of my life. =(
Chris Medina's What Are Words. He did not cut out to be the "American Idol" type but I'm sure his story had made a cut in yr heart. =p enjoy.
How long has it been? How did I fail to feel this feeling anymore?
You shred yr tears from the bleeding heart. You tear out your soul cutting out every edge of your love.
I asked you not to fall, you asked me to return you your heart.
You long for the return of my sanity Too long had I been in the world of sins.
No more for the quenching thirst of lust Turning off the part where I used to know what is love I tell my love to wreck it all cut out all the ropes and let me fall.
and you hold on to the edge of the cliff the rest of the part of you hanging I stand upon looking down at you
Sorry for the lack of update. Life on an island may not be as happening as I thought. Or it does just I'm too busy enjoying I dun give a damn to blog it down. =) Furthermore I don't think u guys will be interest in me blogging about my college life.
It was just a random day, I woke up and found out my phone is out of batt and i left the cable at my workplace,like always I turn on my laptop , on my itunes and let it randomly shuffle the songs I have and it came across this song I have for years.
It's the first song I heard from MGMT, I remember I blogged about it before.
Just to share it with you guys.. Because I found the lyrics, kinda meaningful to me, some may disagree but.. its the youth of life , kinda reflects the teenage life of ours. haha
Enjoy the song..
Time to pretend by MGMT
I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life. Let's make some music, make some money, find some models for wives. I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin, and fuck with the stars. You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.
This is our decision, to live fast and die young. We've got the vision, now let's have some fun. Yeah, it's overwhelming, but what else can we do. Get jobs in offices, and wake up for the morning commute.
Forget about our mothers and our friends We're fated to pretend To pretend We're fated to pretend To pretend
I'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms I'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world I'll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home Yeah, I'll miss the boredem and the freedom and the time spent alone.
But there's really nothing, nothing we can do Love must be forgotten, life can always start up anew. The models will have children, we'll get a divorce We'll find some more models, everyting must run it's course.
We'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end We were fated to pretend To pretend We're fated to pretend To pretend
The melody of this song can kill you slowly. So please listen with a medical aid beside.
Forbidden Colours by David Sylvian feat. Ryuichi Sakamoto
The wounds on your hands never seem to heal I thought all I needed was to believe
Here am i, a lifetime away from you The blood of christ, or the beat of my heart My love wears forbidden colours My life believes
Senseless years thunder by Millions are willing to give their lives for you Does nothing live on?
Learning to cope with feelings aroused in me My hands in the soil, buried inside of myself My love wears forbidden colours My life believes in you once again
Ill go walking in circles While doubting the very ground beneath me Trying to show unquestioning faith in everything Here am i, a lifetime away from you The blood of christ, or a change of heart
My love wears forbidden colours My life believes My love wears forbidden colours My life believes in you once again
It was okay all along. Everything is fine. Understanding situation. The rules are clear. You have your fun I have mine. Benefits for the both side. Win win situation.
And then, it just strikes, without any warning, Just like a storm, peace and calm.
The sudden guilt to bear, the why am I doing this question. Spinning in my head.
Once in awhile the guilt reminds me of itself, Just like tonight, and the night before, and the more nights to come.
Guess I still can't switch it off with a click yet,gotta get more Damon in me. :)
I don't feel alright in spite of these comforting sounds you make. I don't feel alright because you make promises that you break. Into your house, why don't we share our solitude? Nothing is pure anymore but solitude. It's hard to make sense, feels as if I'm sensing you through a lens. If someone else comes, I'd just sit here listening to the drums. Previously I never called it solitude. And probably you know all the dirty shows I've put on. Blunted and exhausted like anyone. Honestly I tried to avoid it. Honestly. Back when we were kids, we would always know when to stop. And now all the good kids are messing up. Nobody has gained or accomplished anything.
I heard that you're settled down, That you found a girl and you're married now, I heard that your dreams came true, Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you, Old friend, why are you so shy? Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it, I had hoped you'd see my face, And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,
Never mind, I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you, too, Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said, "Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead," Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,
You know how the time flies, Only yesterday was the time of our lives, We were born and raised in a summer haze, Bound by the surprise of our glory days,
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it, I had hoped you'd see my face, And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,
Never mind, I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you, too, Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said, "Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Nothing compares, No worries or cares, Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made, Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you, Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said, "Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you, too, Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said, "Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead," Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead.
Thanks for sharing this song with me. Really a lovely one. You said every time you listen to it you thought of me. but when I heard it, it reminded me of us.
The flower blossoms from the sudden sunlight you're still so bright even on a starry night
yea and i know you're still keeping the sunshine smile of yours but no more it is meant for me yea no more it will ever be
Share your happiness with me when I try to be sarcastic I know why you never call again the cupid of your life now Will be nemesis if you do
It's not a choice, it's an act of devotion create the environment for the best of both world
The rain still pours in through the window of soul when I saw the writing by the hand of Aphrodite's documenting the life we had, I was happy we were deeply in love.
No more it will ever be It was abusive It was naive it was heart wrenching.
I wish you well but I never heal from the past of myself
and then I became the present of now
the melody invades in this lonesome night and mix up with the memories which that did not last
and thus, no longer remember how to hold on to someone else
I know we weren't meant to be, but yea that's just me.
Let me fade Into the background Staying under the spotlight Get used to Don't want to Blend into the wall Be part of a shadow I ain't special Don't make me sound special I just want to be there Whenever you are Whoever you are Let it go Run away I ain't ready I don't want to be Don't wait Let it fade I'll be there Just standing there As your shadow As your friend Oh yeah I'm saying this Don't blame Don't cry There's no mistake In loving one's heart Let the soul Be condemn Let it be The devil's tears It should be The angels crying
Till the last petal fall from the rose of yr heart.
I was like a lost moon.. My planet destroyed in some cataclysmic. Disaster movie scenario of desolation,that continued nevertheless to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind,