Thinking about you

Current favorite 

Need not to say more.

Just listen & enjoy.

Thinking about you 

by 

Frank Ocean

A tornado flew around my room before you came

Excuse the mess it made, it usually doesn't rain

In Southern California, much like Arizona

My eyes don't shed tears, but, boy, they bawl

When I'm thinkin' 'bout you

(Ooh, no, no, no)

I've been thinkin' 'bout you

(You know, know, know)

I've been thinkin' 'bout you

Do you think about me still?

Do ya, do ya?

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

No, I don't like you, I just thought you were cool

Enough to kick it

Got a beach house I could sell you in Idaho

Since you think I don't love you, I just thought you were cute

That's why I kiss you

Got a fighter jet, I don't get fly it, though

I'm lyin' down thinkin' 'bout you

(Ooh, no, no, no)

I've been thinkin' 'bout you

(You know, know, know)

I've been thinkin' 'bout you

Do you think about me still?

Do ya, do ya?

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Yes, of course

I remember, how could I forget?

How you feel?

And though you were my first time

A new feel

It won't ever get old, not in my soul

Not in my spirit, keep it alive

We'll go down this road

'Til it turns from color to black and white

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

DL HERE

by

pat

Confuse

Too much noise in my head, or is it the music in my ear?

Insomnia at this hour, or is it I woke up too late yesterday?

I'm confused , so damn confused.

You show the sign of love, but your action indicates the opposite.

Is this a test ? Or is this just a game?

I'm confused, so fucking confused.

♓ & ♑

This is the moment when you're so anticipate the night before Christmas for the next morning you get to open your presents beneath the Christmas tree,

and yet when you wake up the next morning.

The tree was burn down due to an accident, so were the presents.

You know its no one's fault, all you can do is just adapt.

its disappointment , its reality fucking you up.

but hey, its still Christmas.

=)

<3

by

pat

crap

I'm not actually in the correct mindset to blog right now. haha.. but when will it ever be the right time to do anything?I'm not drunk, haven't been for quite some time , and surprisingly I don't need the extra booze to encourage myself to write this down.Hopefully no one give a damn to read this or pray I wont regret the next morning, or few hours later. This place has always been where I documented most of the darkest time of mine, to ink it down here where I could transfer the darkest thought of mine and lock it up and never review it again. People blog so they can review what they had been through in the mere future, honestly, I never, ever read back what I had blogged down, call me a coward, but I take this place to pour out most of what I wish not to look back , or maybe trying to escape from it. Lock it up here, I said to myself , and there's no key to this chest. Exhaustion and uncertainties been clouding me ,things never happen as they are planned,

not in the great expedition of mine anyway. Morality and consciousness contradicts the hormones and sins that I sometimes find it's easier to let it flow den juggling through the confusing what's right what's wrong crap. I'm only fucking 22, as much as I wish to take up the responsibilities to act as my age, how should we act as our age anyway? So much philosophy crap of life that's trying to rub their way in.. sigh, I don't even know why I'm writing this . HAHA.

Right, back to the topic.. whats the topic? I haven't even have a title for this post, maybe I should just call it crap. LOL.. so why am I still writing this? I cant even write down half of what I actually wanna say. shit . Too much consequence to consider .. too much feelings of others that I should care about, how long have I been living in other's expectations instead of living for what I expect?  Why am I talking to myself like this? Wait..it should be like this , blogging is like writing a diary , talking to yourself bullshiting the world on how fun how nice how good ur life is and making others feeling bad and envying the perfect life of urs. HA. wow this is a long full of crap post. Least it sends out a correct message that I'm definitely not in my best set of mind. Hopefully this is not a suicidal path to my social life, and who cares about social life when u know you got friends who's always there for u. Yea I have quite a few of those kind of friends, something I'm grateful for. 

There's a purpose I wrote this, initially anyway, but then I calmed down and I think it's better I don't do something I will regret, but I got no one to talk to, or more precisely, no one I can tell this to. So I came here, but it will be like telling the world , ha, but I need a place to express this out, so maybe this will just be a post of meaningless letters after letters that only I will understand the hidden meaning, like the bubbles coming out of the mouth of the fish. Wha nice way of describing ! hahaha fuck me. CAN U STOP BEING SUCH A MYSTERY URE DRVING ME NUTS I CAN NEVER WORK OUT UR MIND! phew. much better.

=)