Dumb way to die

Dying of FYP seems less legit compare to those.

Someone kill me b4 my brain explode.

=x

Weibird

A Taiwan singer that I like recently.

Let his voice sing you the reason.

韋禮安 - 心醉心碎

Went to his mini concert at Penthouse @ Icon yesterday since my friend got free tickets.
End up we bought his album and we got extra 12 tickets haha.

Taiwan trip random photo 

=)

by

pat

你好吗?

hey我真的好想你 

现在窗外面又开始下着雨 

眼睛干干的有想哭的心情 

不知道你现在到底在哪里 

hey我真的好想你 

太多的情绪 没适当的表情

 最想说的话我应该从何说起 

你是否也像我一样在想你 

如果没有你 没有过去 

我不会有伤心

 但是有如果 还是要爱你

 如果没有你 我在哪里 

又有什么可惜 反正一切来不及 

反正没有了自已 

hey我真的好想你 

不知道你现在到底在哪里

 你是否也像我一样在想你

n 55!W I

Distance Kills

By Nolita Knights

Distance Kills

In love with you
Had to be the dumbest thing
That I could do
You're about the lovliest
That i could choose, you
You're here with me
Even though you're gone and I'm in NYC
Have you in my thoughts as I sit silently, with you

I don't believe that it's not love
I don't believe that we can fail this time
I don't believe it's just a thrill
I just believe that in the space and time
I can't believe that it's not love
I don't believe that we can fail this time
I don't believe it's just a thrill
I just believe that in the space and time
distance kills


We read a lot
Letters are the only things
That we have got
Funny how the words are how 
We form a thought of us

I don't believe that it's not love
I don't believe that we can fail this time
I don't believe it's just a thrill
I just believe that in the space and time
I can't believe that it's not love
I don't believe that we can fail this time
I don't believe it's just a thrill
I just believe that in the space and time
distance kills, distance kills, distance kills


Oh you know know how much I miss you 
Oh I wish that I could kiss you
And the moment that I see you
I will hold you for a lifetime[x5]

(Tell me, I'll be a patient guy
Tell me that our love will not run dry
Tell me that our love won't run dry
Tell me, I'll be a patient guy
Tell me that our love will not run dry
Tell me that our love won't run dry)

DL HERE

by 

pat

Angels

Angels by The xx from their new album, Coexist.

Light reflects from your shadow
It is more than I thought could exist
You move through the room
Like breathing was easy
If someone believed me

They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
In love, love, love

And everyday
I'm learning about you
The things that no one else sees
And the end comes too soon
Like dreaming of angels

And leaving without them
And leaving without them

Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love, love, love
Love, love, love
Love, love, love

And with words unspoken
A silent devotion
I know you know what I mean
And the end is unknown
But I think I'm ready
As long as you're with me

Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love, love, love

DL HERE

Limitation

There's a limit to everyone's patience.

Taking the initiative, I have done all I can.

As a matter a fact I did what everyone does.

Its not demanding. it's normal to everyone.

It's what people do.

You never respond, the only respond I get is like I'm forcing you.

If you do not care, why should I care anymore?

If this is the way you want, then let it be.

Love is deaf.

You cant tell someone you love them. 

You have to show them.

But If you do not love, then there's nothing to show.

我不是流言 不能猜測你.

by pat

One Day

His father smiles and glances back at him. 'I really don't want to have a heart-to-heart. Do you?'
'I'd rather not.'
'Well let's not then. Let's just say that I think the best thing you could do is try and live your life as if Emma were still here. Don't you think that would be best?'
'I don't know if I can.'
'Well you'll have to try.' He reaches for the remote control.
'What do you think I've been doing for the last ten years?'

-chapter twenty, One Day by David Nicholls.
The ever first romance novel I read because Anne Hathaway acted in the movie based on this novel.

Thinking about you

Current favorite 

Need not to say more.

Just listen & enjoy.

Thinking about you 

by 

Frank Ocean

A tornado flew around my room before you came

Excuse the mess it made, it usually doesn't rain

In Southern California, much like Arizona

My eyes don't shed tears, but, boy, they bawl

When I'm thinkin' 'bout you

(Ooh, no, no, no)

I've been thinkin' 'bout you

(You know, know, know)

I've been thinkin' 'bout you

Do you think about me still?

Do ya, do ya?

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

No, I don't like you, I just thought you were cool

Enough to kick it

Got a beach house I could sell you in Idaho

Since you think I don't love you, I just thought you were cute

That's why I kiss you

Got a fighter jet, I don't get fly it, though

I'm lyin' down thinkin' 'bout you

(Ooh, no, no, no)

I've been thinkin' 'bout you

(You know, know, know)

I've been thinkin' 'bout you

Do you think about me still?

Do ya, do ya?

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Yes, of course

I remember, how could I forget?

How you feel?

And though you were my first time

A new feel

It won't ever get old, not in my soul

Not in my spirit, keep it alive

We'll go down this road

'Til it turns from color to black and white

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)

'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

DL HERE

by

pat

Confuse

Too much noise in my head, or is it the music in my ear?

Insomnia at this hour, or is it I woke up too late yesterday?

I'm confused , so damn confused.

You show the sign of love, but your action indicates the opposite.

Is this a test ? Or is this just a game?

I'm confused, so fucking confused.

♓ & ♑

This is the moment when you're so anticipate the night before Christmas for the next morning you get to open your presents beneath the Christmas tree,

and yet when you wake up the next morning.

The tree was burn down due to an accident, so were the presents.

You know its no one's fault, all you can do is just adapt.

its disappointment , its reality fucking you up.

but hey, its still Christmas.

=)

<3

by

pat

crap

I'm not actually in the correct mindset to blog right now. haha.. but when will it ever be the right time to do anything?I'm not drunk, haven't been for quite some time , and surprisingly I don't need the extra booze to encourage myself to write this down.Hopefully no one give a damn to read this or pray I wont regret the next morning, or few hours later. This place has always been where I documented most of the darkest time of mine, to ink it down here where I could transfer the darkest thought of mine and lock it up and never review it again. People blog so they can review what they had been through in the mere future, honestly, I never, ever read back what I had blogged down, call me a coward, but I take this place to pour out most of what I wish not to look back , or maybe trying to escape from it. Lock it up here, I said to myself , and there's no key to this chest. Exhaustion and uncertainties been clouding me ,things never happen as they are planned,

not in the great expedition of mine anyway. Morality and consciousness contradicts the hormones and sins that I sometimes find it's easier to let it flow den juggling through the confusing what's right what's wrong crap. I'm only fucking 22, as much as I wish to take up the responsibilities to act as my age, how should we act as our age anyway? So much philosophy crap of life that's trying to rub their way in.. sigh, I don't even know why I'm writing this . HAHA.

Right, back to the topic.. whats the topic? I haven't even have a title for this post, maybe I should just call it crap. LOL.. so why am I still writing this? I cant even write down half of what I actually wanna say. shit . Too much consequence to consider .. too much feelings of others that I should care about, how long have I been living in other's expectations instead of living for what I expect?  Why am I talking to myself like this? Wait..it should be like this , blogging is like writing a diary , talking to yourself bullshiting the world on how fun how nice how good ur life is and making others feeling bad and envying the perfect life of urs. HA. wow this is a long full of crap post. Least it sends out a correct message that I'm definitely not in my best set of mind. Hopefully this is not a suicidal path to my social life, and who cares about social life when u know you got friends who's always there for u. Yea I have quite a few of those kind of friends, something I'm grateful for. 

There's a purpose I wrote this, initially anyway, but then I calmed down and I think it's better I don't do something I will regret, but I got no one to talk to, or more precisely, no one I can tell this to. So I came here, but it will be like telling the world , ha, but I need a place to express this out, so maybe this will just be a post of meaningless letters after letters that only I will understand the hidden meaning, like the bubbles coming out of the mouth of the fish. Wha nice way of describing ! hahaha fuck me. CAN U STOP BEING SUCH A MYSTERY URE DRVING ME NUTS I CAN NEVER WORK OUT UR MIND! phew. much better.

=) 

Monster

Just have to post this before I head to bed.

They never fail to impress me.

Are u guys prepare for their concert ? 

=)

Monster by

BigBang

by

pat

Breathe Me

Smile

even when the sun goes down.

Breathe me by Sia

Help, I have done it again 

I have been here many times before 

Hurt myself again today

And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame 

Be my friend 

Hold me, wrap me up 

Unfold me 

I am small 

And needy 

Warm me up 

And breathe me 

Ouch I have lost myself again 

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found, 

Yeah I think that I might break 

I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend 

Hold me, wrap me up 

Unfold me 

I am small 

And needy 

Warm me up 

And breathe me 

Be my friend 

Hold me, wrap me up 

Unfold me 

I am small 

And needy 

Warm me up 

And breathe me

DL here.

by 

pat

Back to Lonely town

Started my new semester this week cause I skipped the first week of semester..hehe

yeap I'm back in KL again.

This sem maybe the most hectic ever.

5 subjects include a math seminal which require us to pick a math topic that we never learn before and write it into a book! Not to mention I haven't even start my FYP yet.

Guess I can sleep when I'm dead. LOL.

 First day of class.

Trying to brighten my mood with colorful tee.

=x

Thanks to Reelee for the souvenir she got me from her trip to HK.

 on

Vinylmation keychain by Disney.

Guess she was tipped off by my bearbrick figure.

haha

Forgotten where I heard this song from.

But it's my recent addict.

brings u from emo mood into motivating mood den emo again.

haha

=)

Spanish Sahara by Foals.

DL HERE

anyway hopefully I can do well in this semester and have my backpack travel without any worries.

=)

Yes Im going travelling overseas!

My ever first backpack travelling overboard.

hehe cant wait cant wait .

Got myself a new duffel bag from Bershka.

lol I know so random haha.

but I'm liking it and its cheap.

and most of all convenient I can just throw everything in it.

I don't like bags with too many compartments.

ok bye!

by 

pat

Sorry I'm a bad boy

Plugged in my earpiece , lights off, total darkness. Songs playing with a press of button.

Hollow. Embrace and enhance with the back to back sentimental songs in my lists. The emptiness I felt , once in a blue moon brings me rocking back and forth into those nights I had forgotten that makes me felt this way, yet remembering every single details how it occurred.

I'm abit of a self abusing kind, I enjoy the hollowness in me. Enjoy the wrenching feel that once torn me severely that I hardly recognize myself.

Turning sideway, a smirk escaped from my face. Realizing the reason I enjoy the hollowness of the past, is because it reflects how much warmth you had projected on me in the present.

Hmm... How long had I never blogged this way?? =)

By pat

Bolt

There's always an excuse for everything.

Too pilled up with exams to blog,

and too enjoying my holiday to blog.

haha

anyway, one more week and I have to go back to KL to start my new semester.

So reluctant to go back but still need to.

Got my haircut once I came back from KL.

Still think its nice.

=p

experience crazy things and try what u haven try when ure young or you'll be too old to do it anymore.

=)

I know I live in a country where there's no four season and only summer all day long but the weather been so warm lately. Global warming crisis and may be the end of the world soon.

=/

I hardly wore any sneakers this few weeks.

Only my Birken and flip flops most of the time.

For no special reason I'm into lighting bolt symbol lately.

haha

Got myself this hoodie b4 I came back to Penang.

It was on sales so I just grabbed it hahaha.

nice leh? haha

Got this too~

ligthingbolt earring.

If any of u came across nice nice ligthingbolt stuff pls let me know.

hahaha.

will end this post here.

I ..

will try to blog very soon

haha.

till then.

boom shaka laka?

by

pat

Fun

Did my last paper on the 7th for this semester.

Was very anticipating to go shopping after that but....

before I had my paper I accidentally sprained my ankle.

Due to the awesomeness of the paper I pull an all nighter and I guessed that makes me so blur that I missed my step at the stairs and sprained my ankle

 My sprained ankle.

Stop drooling over my sexy hair legs haha.

but that din stopped me to shop the next day lol.

although it doesn't hurt that much anymore but it had swollen and bruised.

Will consult the doctor once Im back.

Oh yea! Im going home tomorrow!

Just done packing my luggage.

3 weeks of semester break! 

wheeee~

Rilakkuma be@rbrick 

BYE BYE!

Fun by We Are Young feat. Janelle Monae

This song suits my mood now.

=)

U can dl it HERE.

till then.

see u in Penang!

if I can jump around with my sprained ankle that is.

LOL

by

pat

Fantastic baby

Hi Hi!

It's been ... 3 weeks since my previous post.

Cant make out time to blog, the previous weeks was hectically scheduled with tests and the next with assignments and this week. FINALS.

yea crazy life, and 2 days of study break? wtf I called that a weekend.

 luckily there's enough gap in between each subjects for me to revise.

 Pimples popping due to the late night assignment /test rushing hours.

Went back to Penang for a short break after my mid term.

 Surprised them when I reached Penang at 2am when they were boozing at a local pub for the 2nd round.

crazy alcoholics/drug abusing friends. HAHA.

ll

 First paper yesterday and I wore a red tee .

Superstitious behavior.

Apparently even I've read psychology defining my superstitious behavior I still do it.

Whats this act call? I think expressing the act in a disguised fashion or something.
LOL

oh well don't think I did well in both papers.

what done is done,

shall aza aza for the next.

cause I'm ...

Super Pat! haha

and also because I'm Fantastic Baby!!

Its  fawesome when they do it live.

Their charisma is way too incredible.

shall blog again once my finals end.

and I shall be enjoying the beach , the sun , the disco light!!

by

pat

Never Let Me Go

you lose your soul once u were born in this world.

and piece by piece we gathered our shattered pieces and once its whole.

We are angels once again.

Florence + The Machine

Another English band that I like.

The lead singer has a voice that can penetrate yr soul.

haha

DL HERE

Feel so close

Loving the beat of the songs that produces by Calvin Harris

Maybe its because he's a Scottish.

UK stuff and culture has a weird affection on me. 

Maybe I was one in my past life LOL

Feel So Close 

DL HERE

The weather has been abit coo coo lately.

Been falling sick over and over again.

And my plan to get home this week phailed =(

Not sure if I still have the chance to go home.

Makes me emo for 2 days.

Emo Elmo

and this semester sucks!

by

pat

I won't give up

I won't give up 

by

Jason Mraz

DL HERE

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night skyOr a beautiful sunriseWell there's so much they holdAnd just like them old starsI see that you've come so farTo be right where you areHow old is your soul?
I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up
And when you're needing your spaceTo do some navigatingI'll be here patiently waitingTo see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burnSome even fall to the earthWe've got a lot to learnGod knows we're worth itNo, i won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easilyI'm here to stay and make the difference that i can makeOur differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and giftsWe got yeah we got a lot at stakeAnd in the end, you're still my friend at least we didn't tendFor us to work we didn't break, we didn't burnWe had to learn, how to bend without the world caving inI had to learn what i got, and what i'm notAnd who i am
I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking upI'm still looking up
I won't give up (No I'm not) on us (Giving up)God knows i'm tough (I am tough), he knows (I am loved)We got a lot (We're alive) to learn (We are loved)God knows we're worth it (And we're worth it)
I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up.<3