Friday, December 30, 2011


Exam timetable

Everyday is a one stone kill two birds day for 1 and a half years.

gonna nail it ! #likeaboss 

#trollface addicted recently

see when when im back from study hell.


Sunday, December 25, 2011

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

No U turn

Sometimes you wonder if you took the correct path.
And than you'll wonder if the path is worth fighting for.


Saturday, December 3, 2011

Testing 2.1


Thanks to my college system.
I'm having 3 tests every week.
calculus,discrete and statistic test all together!
This is insanely hectic !
I totally looks like a zombie now.

Xmas in Pavilion
Christmas very soon.
which means SALES to me.

Hopefully I can pass all the stupid test and take the stupid finals and start my holiday.
 till then,


Sunday, November 20, 2011


4 tests due next week.
although I already knew what I signed up for but this is so stresssssss!

gonna bury myself under all those unknown equations and codesss.
hopefully I get to go home on the next holiday.
Will blog again once I'm temporary out of tests.
I wanna my holiday!
and I want SNOW!


Monday, November 14, 2011

Iron & Wine

Been chilling most of the time after my first tests.
and now I'm having my 2nd tests next week

hectic college life yet I'm still slacking.

Went to this Feeling cafe nearby for some beer.
Was a last minute decision.
They got live singing performance as well.

 Bucket of Carlsberg for the night.

And they were into pool table games these days.
Or they had been for few years.
the last time I played was when i was 17 i think.

oh ya and finally got the latest and last book of the Inheritance Cycle.

This is the wedding version of Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron & Wine.
Guess this song will be featured in the Breaking Dawn part 1 when Edward & Bella got married.

Its nice and sweet.
and eargasmic 
you can dowload it from HERE


Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Hakuna Matata

Blogging using my phone again :)
Went back to Penang for 3 days, sorry I can't catch up with everyone.

Watched The Lion King 3D .
So much childhood memories that I was singing along in the cinema I think I annoyed the audience beside me haha.

Took this in the cinema.

Watched You are the apple of my eye.
Best movie from Taiwan this year.
Another movie that brought me down the memory lane.

Went to this place for dessert.
Homemade recipes.
but don't try the tang yuan with cheese.
wrong combination of east + west. LOL 

Located at Lorong Susu.
The name of the shop is 团团圆圆团圆汤圆甜品屋 or
All about sugar & gift.
Super long Chinese name.

Price is average.
but varieties of choices.

thats all for now.
gtg to class d.
already skipped 2 class this morning.

by pat

Thursday, November 3, 2011


Just finish off with my statistic test and did my discrete maths test the day before. Can't say I did well , have to work harder or am so gonna flunk my exam. :(

Anyway this post is just for me to test my blogger app out :) simple but not as enhance as the website.

1 more day and I'm going home yay! Till then, bye~

By pat

Monday, October 31, 2011


 Happy Halloween. ^w^

Having 3 tests this week from Wed ~ Fri 
Study life here is hectic but I feel more contented than ever.

and am going home on Friday after my test! 

Recent pat
My hair grew extremely fast,
wish it goes that way with my brain cells LOL

anyway I disabled my chat box since it became a spam area.
anything just drop in my comment post

gotta back to my studies now.
aza aza FIGHTHING!


Sunday, October 9, 2011

On soulmate"s"

"And it always feels like there is just one person in this world to love, and then you find somebody else, and it just seems crazy that you were ever worried in the first place."
- Lexie Grey. S07E16 . 

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Nothing Compares 2U

A voice that really sing the soul out of u.



download HERE


Wednesday, June 29, 2011


U cant sleep and u're browsing thru the web randomly.
and when you try to find things from your bookmarked sites and suddenly,
u saw a site that you bookmarked years ago .

A map site that you bookmarked.
You deleted it since you find it useless to you anymore and when the moment u clicked

The memories flows in.

and came the feelings which were once long buried deep.

Before you let yourself take on the train down the memory lane.

You said:

"Hey, I'm having the time of my life now, I haven't feel more of myself than any of the other day."


And there's more to come in the mere future.


Thursday, June 23, 2011

Natural Selection

Not that I'm lazy to update.

Like the natural selection.

Blog gets eliminated.

by twitter,
by facebook,
by instagram,
by blackberry,
by android,
by angry birds,
by iphone,

By the pace of technology.


I will still blog.
but not that often anymore I guess.

and I want to clarify something.
Many may be wondering,
and I guess I owe u guys an explanation.

but then,
after some thinking of the circumstances,
I decided not to post it out.

I promised that I will clarified it to you guys in person if you guys tend to ask.

Under the circumstances that you guys asked the CORRECT question.

used to care what people talk about me behind my back,
words goes around u know,
and it eventually will be known by the person ure talking about.
I heard about what u guys said about me today behind my back.
Surprisingly, I did not get all fed up or bother by it.
least not as much as it used to be.

I guess,maybe cause the feeling is mutual.
and I'm lazy to care too.
Enjoy your life Segians.


Tuesday, May 31, 2011

End of May

I know it will damage yr ears if you use it too often,
But there is this reason why I need it,
the feeling when u look at a person blabbing none stop yet you just look at them with a fake smile on yr face like you actually listening to them,
but you turned the volume to the max.

It really makes you feel like you own the world.

Other than staying in a complete darkness this is another way I escape from the reality once in awhile.
I'm not good at shutting down my mind,like I got this OCD to make me keep on thinking and talking randomly to myself in my head,things that are irrelevant or even not worth to be pick up.

The distraction of the surrounding sounds,
the main fact that reminds me I'm still in the reality,
so I would just put on my headphones,
shuffle the track lists in my itunes and just listen to nothing , but the echoes of music in my mind.

And there's this thing about me being abnormal,
I'm not sure if this is part of the growing thingy that everyone will go through,
but the rookie in this pace I am still wondering and hitting the bushes as I'm walking down that alley that I don't even sure where it leads and am I on the right track.

I know I think differently , some may notice
slightly more than what I used to be,
but sometimes I'm confuse myself,
as in why am I writing this down at 0630 in the morning instead of snoozing away.

There's also this moral ethics thing,
thanks to it I am bounded to the ground ,
chained by it's ethical crap.
I wished to like:"hey dad I feel like to go around the world so I won't be back so soon bye."
But then that would be irresponsible or so called rebellion or worse I would be the ungrateful child right?
Yea see like i said thanks to the ethical crap.

Why cant we fly when we were born as an angel?
Even the devil have bat wings,
Or are we chickens without the guts to do so?

Every action,
every steps that we take we have to consider the consequences for we are the heart of our life and the decisions we make will create ripples that effects the people around us.
We choose the most carefree way ,that which won't give out the most affection,
that will satisfied each side ,
but we always awfully forgotten to consider ourselves in the equation,thus with the solution that you're not embracing it, but graded to do so.

I need the disco ball of my life.

Chris Medina's What Are Words.
He did not cut out to be the "American Idol" type but I'm sure his story had made a cut in yr heart.


Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Skinny Love

How long has it been?
How did I fail to feel this feeling anymore?

You shred yr tears from the bleeding heart.
You tear out your soul
cutting out every edge of your love.

I asked you not to fall,
you asked me to return you your heart.

You long for the return of my sanity
Too long had I been in the world of sins.

No more for the quenching thirst of lust
Turning off the part where I used to know what is love
I tell my love to wreck it all
cut out all the ropes and let me fall.

and you hold on to the edge of the cliff
the rest of the part of you hanging
I stand upon
looking down at you

You look at me
Knowing the answer.

You squeeze a smile.

you let go.




Monday, April 25, 2011

Time To Pretend

Sorry for the lack of update.
Life on an island may not be as happening as I thought.
Or it does just I'm too busy enjoying I dun give a damn to blog it down.
Furthermore I don't think u guys will be interest in me blogging about my college life.

It was just a random day,
I woke up and found out my phone is out of batt and i left the cable at my workplace,like always I turn on my laptop , on my itunes and let it randomly shuffle the songs I have and it came across this song I have for years.

It's the first song I heard from MGMT, I remember I blogged about it before.

Just to share it with you guys..
Because I found the lyrics,
kinda meaningful to me,
some may disagree but..
its the youth of life ,
kinda reflects the teenage life
of ours.

Enjoy the song..

Time to pretend

I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life.
Let's make some music, make some money, find some models for wives.
I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin, and fuck with the stars.
You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.

This is our decision, to live fast and die young.
We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.
Yeah, it's overwhelming, but what else can we do.
Get jobs in offices, and wake up for the morning commute.

Forget about our mothers and our friends
We're fated to pretend
To pretend
We're fated to pretend
To pretend

I'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms
I'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world
I'll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home
Yeah, I'll miss the boredem and the freedom and the time spent alone.

But there's really nothing, nothing we can do
Love must be forgotten, life can always start up anew.
The models will have children, we'll get a divorce
We'll find some more models, everyting must run it's course.

We'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end
We were fated to pretend
To pretend
We're fated to pretend
To pretend

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah



Sunday, April 10, 2011

Forbidden Colours

The melody of this song can kill you slowly.
So please listen with a medical aid beside.

Forbidden Colours by
David Sylvian feat. Ryuichi Sakamoto

The wounds on your hands never seem to heal
I thought all I needed was to believe

Here am i, a lifetime away from you
The blood of christ, or the beat of my heart
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes

Senseless years thunder by
Millions are willing to give their lives for you
Does nothing live on?

Learning to cope with feelings aroused in me
My hands in the soil, buried inside of myself
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes in you once again

Ill go walking in circles
While doubting the very ground beneath me
Trying to show unquestioning faith in everything
Here am i, a lifetime away from you
The blood of christ, or a change of heart

My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes in you once again

Download Here

This one is the piano version with Ryuichi Sakamoto but its called
Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence.

Download the piano version HERE

Hopefully u guys enjoy both version.
Happy emo-ing.


Saturday, April 2, 2011

The arousing of a bunny

It was okay all along.
Everything is fine.
Understanding situation.
The rules are clear.
You have your fun I have mine.
Benefits for the both side.
Win win situation.

And then,
it just strikes,
without any warning,
Just like a storm,
peace and calm.

The sudden guilt to bear,
the why am I doing this question.
Spinning in my head.

Once in awhile the guilt reminds me of itself,
Just like tonight,
and the night before,
and the more nights to come.

Guess I still can't switch it off with a click yet,gotta get more Damon in me.


Wednesday, March 30, 2011


Once in awhile
Someone comes along

And changes everything
you believe about yourself.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011




Don't think too much.

Its the truth
call me ego.
but I prefer arrogant.
yet I dun give a damn.


You can never be happy,when you can't even be yourself.
Impress yourself instead of hiding who you are.


still the same.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Comforting Sounds

Comforting Sounds by Mew
Current fav song

I don't feel alright in spite of these comforting sounds you make.
I don't feel alright because you make promises that you break.
Into your house, why don't we share our solitude?
Nothing is pure anymore but solitude.
It's hard to make sense, feels as if I'm sensing you through a lens.
If someone else comes, I'd just sit here listening to the drums.
Previously I never called it solitude.
And probably you know all the dirty shows I've put on.
Blunted and exhausted like anyone.
Honestly I tried to avoid it.
Back when we were kids, we would always know when to stop.
And now all the good kids are messing up.
Nobody has gained or accomplished anything.

Download HERE



Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Someone Like You

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Download this song HERE

Thanks for sharing this song with me.
Really a lovely one.
You said every time you listen to it you thought of me.
but when I heard it, it reminded me of us


Monday, March 7, 2011


The flower blossoms
from the sudden sunlight
you're still so bright
even on a starry night

yea and i know
you're still keeping the sunshine smile of yours
but no more it is meant for me
yea no more it will ever be

Share your happiness with me
when I try to be sarcastic
I know why you never call again
the cupid of your life now
Will be nemesis if you do

It's not a choice,
it's an act of devotion
create the environment
for the best of both world

The rain still pours in
through the window of soul
when I saw the writing by the hand of Aphrodite's
documenting the life we had,
I was happy
we were deeply in love.

No more it will ever be
It was abusive
It was naive
it was heart wrenching.

I wish you well
but I never heal
from the past of myself

and then I became
the present of now

the melody invades
in this lonesome night
and mix up with the memories which
that did not last

and thus,
no longer remember
how to hold on to someone else

I know we weren't meant to be,
but yea that's just me.



Wednesday, February 23, 2011




Monday, February 14, 2011

V for....

Let me fade
Into the background
Staying under the spotlight
Get used to
Don't want to
Blend into the wall
Be part of a shadow
I ain't special
Don't make me sound special
I just want to be there
Whenever you are
Whoever you are
Let it go
Run away
I ain't ready
I don't want to be
Don't wait
Let it fade
I'll be there
Just standing there
As your shadow
As your friend
Oh yeah I'm saying this
Don't blame
Don't cry
There's no mistake
In loving one's heart
Let the soul
Be condemn
Let it be
The devil's tears
It should be
The angels crying

Till the last petal fall
from the rose of yr heart.


Saturday, February 12, 2011

Tangled & Twisted Mind

I was like a lost moon..
My planet destroyed in some cataclysmic.
Disaster movie scenario of desolation,that continued nevertheless to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind,

Ignoring the laws of gravity.


Friday, February 11, 2011

of CNY

Frogurt is good for health.

Before CNY.
Sing till your lungs drop.
Finally after being nag by her she get to sing with pat.

Bump into her again the next day lol..

Day 1 of CNY

Liver is dying
Boozing as always.
Enjoy the fucking youth you have
And care less about the rest.

Day 2 of CNY

Continue with the flow of the beer.
Liver is crying.

But we're having so much fun we don't care less.

Happy Juice makes u happy lol

Tomyam Mee Goreng as supper is a must~

Day 3 of CNY

Same time same place.
Same crying liver.

same people same pat.

Day 4 of CNY

Official Liver resting day.
Hiding the accumulated dark circles.

Fast food for the limited time.
We never stop to enjoy how graceful when the time dance upon us.

And we sing our lungs away for the last time.
With the songs by their divas and heroes.

Am loving Han's Camera.

and the stories continue.....